Ruah Bull - Spiritual Director

 Your task is not to seek for love but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it

  Proper Effort is not the effort to           make something particular happen.           It is the effort to be aware             and awake in each moment. 

 Whatever it is, I cannot understand it, although gratitude stubbornly overcomes me until I am reduced to tears.

 From a season of sparrows, grateful for seed, from a morning when watching their feeding is all the prayer I have in me. This is the tithing I offer- this moment, tiny as the millet seed one bird lifts in her perfect beak. I swear she looks straight at me as, in a gesture like my head  tilting back to take wine, she swallows. O God, never stop feeding me these moments. Keep tearing through the blue curtain of eternity to find me here, behind the kitchen window, drinking my coffee, doing time.